#89

Just shifted from coffebean to macs,

decided to take a break now and blog for a bit

I feel... brain dead hahaha omg :'(

Have been out trying to study since... 1245 bleaghhhh

was supposed to meet alyssa at 10am hahaha but i overslept oops :s 

I couldn't hear the alarm!!! Must have been so tired hahaha sorry <3

Anyway, 

other than studying thats shitty.. 

today's been pretty nice thanks to alyssa~~~ ^^ ALYPOOPOO hahaha

that's her instagram name hahahahaha she's going to kill me when she sees this hahaha

she says she didn't want that instag name but was forced to stick w that

cuz all the usernames she wanted was taken hahahaah

eh dont lie ok i bet u genuinely liked that username 

come on just admit it... HAHAHAHAHHA ok i kid ^^ 

AND THANK U SO SO MUCH FOR TEACHING ME MATH :)

I could tell that she was about to puke blood hahahaha I'm such a pain in the ass

took so long for me to get something haha stupid lousy brain of mine haha sigh

k anyway was also really satisfied with todays lunch: SASHIMI!!!! 

Hahahaha bought it from the sushi stall at shopnsave at the basement. 

like 5 pieces for $7...

Quite ex right?? Hahahaha idk

somehow studying makes me willing to spend more on food regardless of the price

happy food whee

then this sashimi led to a very retarded and bimbotic yet amusing short conversation:

Me: Eh.. fish makes you smarter you know

Alyssa: But it's not this kind of fish right... it's that kind of fish.....

Me: i think it's all kinds of fish right.....?

..................................

*awkward..*

Hahahahahahhaha 

wtf then alyssa burst out laughing 

because the whole convo just sounded so ridiculous

and then i realized too, after her. Hahahaha omg wtf... so epic hahaha

love this girl <3

Hehe anyway some pics!

 Thanks for today :)

Gonna do more math in a bit... math is honestly the bane of my existence.

It's so tough i don't even know how and why would normal people come up with such equations..

no honestly it get so frustrating i feel like punching someone

haahhaa violent tendency hahahaha ok kidding but u get my point.

Trying so hard to keep faith 

IT GETS SO TOUGH 

urghhhhh

Also, have actually been feeling pretty weird and kinda upset 

Without knowing what the exact reason is

Am i going crazy........

hahah ok no but just thinking about stuff 

oh well but ok no time to think about other things

don't let the mind drift, KEEP FOCUS

Jy for exams guys :)

Just a song :)

One of my new favorites! <3 hehe

Enjoy :)

#88

Monday's over!

Studying today wasn't very productive, not sure why haha

Only did a bit of political science and A BIT OF MATH?

For... 10h haha omg 

ok but anyway it's ridiculous i hate doing calculus

i get stuck for really long then i'd get really upset.. zzz HELP 

haha but anyway say hi to my study buddy for the day!!!

Althee :*

My fav barbie!

Hahaha such a cutie right hehe 

Love you ^^

Anyway i didn't manage to stay till 2 today hahaha 

cuz i gotta wake up really early tomorrow (no idea why I'm still awake)

but I CANT WAIT TO MEET ALYSSA TO STUDY TOMORROW <3

Hahaha really love it when old friends make the effort to meet :')

Haven't seen her for so longgggggggg

May tomorrow will be a happy and productive day 

And

ALL THE BEST FOR EXAMS EVERYONE!!!! 

We're in this together :)

#87 GIF

Going to study now

Noooooooooooo

Hahahahahaha *cries*

LOL i just realized the nail color and my nail....

it looks like a teardrop hahahaha how apt

hahahahahaha ok 

need to stop wasting time

10h mugging session lets go <3

Bye!!!

#86

Studying for the past 2 days' been alright, 

managed to do more this time
but i know i still need a lot more revision lol

WILL I EVER FEEL PREPARED...

i honestly don't know haha but anyway

Im just gonna do what i can and do my best

and if the results don't turn out well, it's alright. 

Just don't wanna end up regretting at the end of the day.

To be honest i really feel like shit because i can't do anything else 
but to glue my butt onto the chair at macs for hours
And bury my head in my notes/books :'(
And it gets to this point like i just really feel like crying 
because nothing seems to be going in no matter how hard i try to remember my content
Happens all the time. 
And i get ESPECIALLY upset when i try to do calculus haha sighhhhz
i am actually really scared for calculus. I am so weak at math i don't even...
kkk try my best i can do this.... BREATHE
All will be well.

Feeling extremelyyyy tired today because i only had 3.5h of sleep haha
left macs at 2am yesterday wahhh perseverance (y)
Mcdonalds is officially my fav hangout... my territory hahahaha

 look! Macs at the unearthly hour ^
haha wish i could drive and had a car, then i wouldn't have to spend money on cabs
oh well haha ended up sleeping at 5 somehow,
woke up really early in the morning and went to pay respects to granny for the 100th day
Really glad i managed to drag myself off the bed despite the severe lack of sleep
knew i'd be really tired for the rest of the day but honestly... family > exams.
Miss you granny. You'll always be in my heart x

Can't wait for exams to be over, 

i will be so liberated yayyyy

Hahaha

anyway, i think I'm actually gonna be sleeping before 4am today!
Am feeling quite guilty i feel like i should do some math (whutttt~)
but i don't think my brain is functioning anymore ahaha
goodnight guys!
Have a good week ahead :)

And here are 2 songs I'm really really in love with!!!
Actually I'm more in love with the band haha Icarus account <3
Im such a laggard but.. hahaha go check them out on youtube i swear they're amazing :)
Always feel so much better/happier when i listen to them while studying hahah
somehow idk why either, just really love their songs and voices
Enjoy :)

  

#85

Studying today wasn't so bad, 

wasn't super productive or anything but i kinda am gonna take it easy

I shouldn't be stressing myself out so much, 

especially when i know for a fact that i can't work or excel under stress

so stress for me is just..... a no no.

Haha ok breathe~~~ i should join tai chi or something hahaha

alright anyway managed to do a bit of pol science today,

can't really rmb everything I've studied yet but its alright

Hopefully i will remember them by 4th dec (exam date!!!)

Hahaha so much to remember but political science is kinda interesting in a way..

and less dry as compared to technology and world change. 

Im just like... huhhhh when I'm trying to remember the stuff in the notes/textbook hahah

never knew i was so bad at technology until.. hahahah oh well.

Shall shower soon and finish up on the polscience question i was forced to stop halfway just now

ahahaha thanks to the calculus homework i completely forgot about....

but ok anyway all is well i have submitted my work

Right before the closing time *relieved* 

Alright, going off now 

hope mugging's going well for those having exams too :)

xxx

On a happier note

WZ came to study with me today :)

Even though it was only for a short while 

it's always nice to have some company especially when you're studying haha

Thank you <3 

& I hope you're enjoying your buffet right now!!

Eat more sashimi for me hahaaha

 

Love ya xo

#84

Break now, just completed two chapters of TWC

And thats all I've done so far today.... er.. 

It's okay one step at a time

(Trying very hard to stay calm here)

Haha i have not touched political science (YET) just calculus and twc

But i will probably do it later tonight, i hope

haha and i need to do some math :s

okay CONQUER

valentina yong you can do this yes u can

My life right now feels like... this

TOO FAST

I need to breathe

okay i don't have a choice, do i? 

Clearly, i don't. Haha

Suck it up 

this phase will pass, i just need to bear with it.

Essential.

#83

Good morning 

This is really how i look like when i wake up lol

okay, brand new day brand new start

I hope i don't end up feeling so bashed up/demoralised again esp towards the end of the day

It happens all the time

Optimism at the beginning, insane pessimism at the end

IT'S A VICIOUS CYCLE

noooooooooooo

alright, trying my very best to stay positive.....

alright, off to study soon

see ya x

#82

BREAK TIME

(finally?)

Yeah, 6 hours here after i ended work.

Am like the only soul left in macs....

it's almost 1am and I'm so so SO tempted to go home but i cant

Have so much to cover, idk.

i honestly think I'm really stupid and useless.

I need something/someone to cheer me up :'( 

I AM SO FUCKING TIRED.

I want this to end asap.

#81

Hi from work

Am trying to read up on TWC while working, but...

just pretty distracted by the froyo and cereals

hahahahahah okay but at least i end work at 530...

Gonna mug till 2+ am tonight!!! GO ME

just trying to console myself 

bleagh

I am so bored here *snores*

 Currently in my own happy bubble

LIVING IN DENIAL

Probably happier like this

#80

Mugging Day 2

Sat in macs for around 10h straight, 
and what's frustrating and upsetting is the fact that i didn't actually manage to do much...????

Decided to work on calculus today since i didn't touch it last night because i left macs earlier than i intended to. Was gonna mug overnight yesterday but my phone and itouch was out of batt, 

so yeah, i was kinda forced to go home haha sigh can't study out without my music!

Wanted to do math when i got home but i somehow didn't because i was so distracted and tired (it was 1am..) haha urghhhhh k then i fell asleep on my couch without showering 

(ya k don't judge thanks)

then i got up at 330am to shower?? Wah. Ended up sleeping at 5am 

Might as well go clubbing right? it's kinda the same thing actually 

oh yes did i mention that i SLEEP-ATE hahaha like eating and stuffing my face

while i was half-conscious??

How scary is that hahaha one of the million reasons why i can't ever lose weight #resigned

no hahah i will lose weight, i must hahaha

okay but lets not talk about losing weight...

anyway ya, today's mugging session was quite... unproductive considering the amount of time i spent revising... okay let me rephrase this: TRYING to revise

wow mega fml

i wish i had better brains, i don't even....

i sometimes think that my head is hollow???

Like someone shouts into it and u can hear echoes after

seriously???? So so so frustrating

was this close to bursting into tears at one point.

My productivity level is always so bloody low when it comes to math

I just can't get it...?

okay i admit that i haven't been practicing it a lot and I haven't been consistent but 

I AM TRYING.

Some topics are just so hard i can stare at it for an hour

ONE QN ONE HOUR??? whut?

See.. brain where are you? 

Announcement: 

Please find the missing brain of valentina yong and you will be handsomely rewarded.

you're gonna need a microscope to find it.

No seriously.. 

I haven't felt this inadequate in my entire life

Whoever said a's was the toughest phase was obviously lying

Sometimes i just wish i could knock my head against the table, black out and wake up after exams, on december 5th, thanks.

Ahhhh but obviously thats not possible, 

just being stupid and random.. as always

I have so much left to study? Idk :'(

I know i shouldn't be wasting my time ranting/complaining/being upset and all

but i just can't help it

I think the whole of this and next week's gonna be flooded with angsty/pessimistic posts

please pardon me

Ahhh I AM SO TIRED!!!!

i hope i can finish revising asap

i actually have work tomorrow, wow. 

Couldn't find a replacement, sigh i guess i will have to mug in the shop

Gonna mug overnight at macs after work to make up for it.

Please please pleaaaaase, may tomorrow onwards be productive as ever.

BIG BIG SIGH

#79

Hardcore mugging starts 

TODAY!!!!!

Hahahahaha anyway

just wanna say hello~

and have a great day ahead

^^

Hehe okay 

time to leave home

tata!

#78

Lazing around at home

Have not started doing any studying for the day... but its okay, i think

Haha haven't had such good rest for so long!!!

Almost forgot how sundays should be like aha

but of course i know this sunday = rest/slack thing is just an excuse

especially for lazy people like me.. haha

but seriously don't see why i need to make myself so unhappy

just saying.... 

but i always end up going back to being unhappy and stressed out ANYWAY

so what I'm saying is kinda rhetorical haha 

It's funny how I'm less stressed even though I'm supposed to be frantically mugging for exams

haha somehow exam stress < school (work + assignment) stress

Ive never done so much work (and taking all of them so seriously) in my whole entire life

Haha what is uni doing to me?

lol alright 

self reminder: I AM NOT A FUCKING ROBOT.

School's making me age damn quickly too, 

one word for my current state: HAGGARD

hahahahaha oldie

Anyway i think i will probably head out to do some revision later tonight...? 

I don't know

THE RAIN IS MAKING ME FEEL EVEN MORE LAZY

Sunday (evening) rain is fallin'~~~

Stuck at home for now.

Not doing anything else but stoning, surfing the net, playing w photo booth even tho i look like shit lol but its okay, rolling around my bed, walking around, eating, bla bla bla

everything but revision 

I really really REALLY don't wanna mug today :'( Somehow i can't seem to start this engine 

INERTIA

But anyway, i also have decided to face up to harsh reality that i really need to lose weight

Hate ma body... for the longest time

Wish i was skinny but i somehow can never ever be like most girls

Im like stuck w this manly build hurhur

SO ENVIOUS OF EVERYONE ELSE.

ok. but anyway... i am going on a diet hahaha 

For real!!

Ok done ranting
bye xxx 

#77

SCHOOL'S OUT

Yayyyy i am so super happy 

I actually survived 13 weeks of school :>

Though I've also been experiencing a lot of angst/rage/disappointment and all that stuff lol

Just really glad its over

2 more weeks till exams, really need to mug like C R A Z Y 

startin... tomorrow haha sigh it never ever ends!!!

Not prepared for exam AT ALL but i can't wait for my hols

PARTY TIME

Hahaha have not partied in the longest time.

5th dec HURRY COME

hahaahaha

Alright anyway, This weeks been really busy (again)

Had a quiz on wed for calculus, submission of assignment 3, and 2 presentations hahaha

So glad aw's over, I AM FREE FROM AW!!!

All that writing really stresses me out haha 

But i feel kinda sad though.. i really love having aw lessons w my awesome 3 hahahaha

APPENDIX.. lololol (inside joke)

Had this paper cut during class and idgi... how can small cuts be so painful?? Hahahahah

like much more painful than it looks. 

It's damn weird but true. Hahaha then i was talking to mel and leon about it

then mel had this bimbo moment...

"Ya!! All the small cuts are always very painful but when the cut is damn big then not as pain"

HAHAAHAAH omg lolol i love this girl <3

GONNA MEEZ U A LOT MA BIMBO QUEEN hahahahha

Some pics w my fav ppl 

 Had the last CT lesson too on wednesday

We brought so much food to class, as if we were having a picnic hahaha

well, thank u for the super enjoyable time at classes and meetings! :) <3

 Presentations on fri was alright, much much better than the first one we had :)

Good job everyone!

 See you guys around school :)

Went to work for a bit after that

BORED MYSELF TO DEATH 

hahaaha i was falling asleep...

Haven't had much rest the past few days cuz i was so busy w all the work

but ok, at least i get to earn that tiny bit of money $$$ 

Went to étude house cuz i was kinda bored 

Ended up buying some facial masks (It was on some offer! 5 pieces + 1 free for 10 bucks) hahaha

It looked quite nice, so... hahahah 

then i got nail polish too hahaa yay! New colours :)

Got pastel pink and pastel blue, love it :)

I really like etude house's nail polish, think they have pretty colours! 

Attempted to do my globalization readings for polscience quiz but TO NO AVAIL.

lol it's so dry... just kept spacing out halfway hahaha

OH WELL.

This morning.. 

i accidentally hit my finger on my dad's shaver that had its blade facing out and it cut my finger zzzz 

what a klutz. 

Gross right haha sigh 

Went to school in the afternoon for a makeup lesson cuz we didn't have our lesson on tues cuz it was a public holiday! Hahah had another presentation, idk why but i felt quite scared today! Hahaha like i wasn't scared or anything for yesterday's but somehow i just felt so... zzz hahaha okay but it wasn't like SUPER bad hahaha just that i didn't make enough eye contact.. hahaha and i also kinda just realized that i tend to smile a lot/ALL THE TIME when I'm presenting. Shit hahaha

I need to stop smiling so much... i subconsciously do it ahhhh gotta correct it :s

Nevertheless I'm really glad/thankful for my group mates :)

It's been really nice working together <3

GURL POWER ^^

Lesson today was good too, prof was so nice!

He actually brought food and drinks for the class!!! Hahahaha awww

And omg super cute, all the drinks he got were like tea (oolong tea, honey green tea, etc) hahahahaha 

then we watched this short episode of mr bean hahahahahah 

lesson today was pretty chill~~ 

LOVED IT :D

Hahahaha 

Honestly i like most of my profs this sem,

like they're all nice and pretty understanding :)

Its just the amount of work we have to do that drives me crazy

lolll ok ITS OVER!!!!! 

Hooray ^^