Guden Morgan!
It's been a week since i've been away from home
And to be honest, I am already starting to miss home -
Family, Food, Familiarity & Comfort with everything around me.
I've never been the kind of girl who could be independent (sadly)
Thus of course I never thought I would make the decision to go for an exchange alone.
I had a lot of doubts about going to Germany all by myself.
I was even worried about taking the plane alone!?!??!
HAHA well.. I guess cuz I've never taken an airplane alone before
(Yeah, I know I sound like a kid but somehow I just dont like taking a plane alone)
And also becuz I've never taken such a long flight, ever.
Other things that were causing me to hesitate were things like not having been to Europe before- Didn't know what it was like, and I didn't have enough faith in my ability to be independent hahaha
Low self efficacy and conscientiousness level
Anxiety level is like out-of-the-world
DATZ ME, what a turn off hahaha
I was THIS close to withdrawing my application.. but I'm glad I didn't :)
Going for an exchange alone was kinda like an opportunity for me to further develop myself as an individual cuz it forces me to step out of my comfort zone and learn independence.
Many of my friends were so worried that I would 'die there' (HAHAHA) or like get lost and stranded somewhere, or struggle to survive everyday because I'm just that.. blur/silly/lost whenever I'm left alone..